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well, APs are halfway over

I'm feeling pretty good about them. I think I'll probably get those 90 credit hours at OSU :D

just finished a rough-draft of a research paper due Monday. That's why this post is being done at 2 AM

received—and mostly filled out—the housing form in the mail today. yes. I mostly filled it out in the mail.

aye

so wierd that highschool is over soon. Only 5 days of actual class left, excluding days of AP testing, physics field trip to PKI, and senior chapel day.

It's hard to understand that human social frameworks are not the only way to live. Will I be able to break free? I'll still have to pay taxes and all that. Life is just so free-form. Taking the forms makes it easier, though. We get firemen and police protection, &c., this way.

I don't even know what I want to do with my life. I feel this obligation to do something great. I have so much at my disposal. I feel this need, this desire which pumps my diaphragm, to take everything which I have, and to consolidate it in one massive effort to—

dangit. missed again.

I can never get to that bare infinitive.

I guess I will just continue working to increase "so much at my disposal" to "everything at my disposal." This is why I triple-major and do everything else. I want to be everything.

Do I want to be god?

I don't even know what that means.

but it is a question.

meaning that the subject lies between the verb and the predicate.

-=-raptur-=-